Just too bored...

Things are getting really ironic.



Taken 2 years ago.

I love HONEY! I cannot live without honey.
I just ate without mixing with water.
Haha.. I feel like a bear.
Seriously I'm going to get diabetes soon if I continue to consume alot of honey every single day.

And...

I hate banana milk!
Mama stop buying! I hate it! I hate it!
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Nowadays I crave for extra sweetness and spiciness.
I don't know why!
Like yesterday I just eat chilli without mixing with anything.
And is the extra spicy one.
I still continue eating even though I'm tearing already.
And I'm loving it.
I don't usually take spicy. My friends know that.
Can anyone explain this unusual phenomenon?
And I find alot of food went tasteless.
My taste bud went seriously wrong.
Help me...

One more thing...
I have thoughts of vomiting everything I had consumed.
Few days ago, I was hesitating in the toilet whether to try to vomit out everything because I think I ate too much while actually I only had a meal.
I shouted at my mother whenever she bought food back.
I always cannot resist the temptation but these few days I realised I lost my usual huge appetite.

I workout until fatigue every night.
Yes. I'm on a diet, however, the weight forever don't seems to lose.
Why?
I'm desperate.

There wouldn't be a birthday if I weren't born.
So I rather not be born.