Life goes on...

Why am I feeling so empty and tired?
Why am I feeling so lost?
Why am I so helpless?
Why am I behaving like this?
Why don't I understand myself?
What do I really want?
What am I expecting?
Why am I so afraid of things?
Why am I so afraid to face the problem?
Why am I trying to escape?
What is wrong with me?
Why am I being so selfish?
How many people have I hurt?
Angel or demon?
What am I to people?
Just laugh out loud as I should?
What is wrong?!
When will I ever learn?

Humiliation. Jealousy. Anger. Loneliness. Indecision. Pessimism.
How things are so complicated now.
So vulnerable.
Why some living happily while others were suffering?
What is happy?

Haunting bad memories.
Why can't I be optimistic?
Why can't I stay positive?
Why think so much?
Just continue life like it should be until death comes upon.

How beautiful is the world?
Don't you see?
There's nothing here in this world.
Time will take me away.

My head is spinning.
More like fever but it's not.
I feel like fainting.
The weather is killing me.
I hope it rains.
Everything looks so bad now.
No turning back?

Jealousy is torturing me.
Why some are so capable?
Why can't I be like them?
What is my ability?
Ugh!
I can't stop feeling jealous.
That's just stupid...

Now, I really need to do my homework because my life still goes on.

Ciao.